micheal

my friend Micheal, from DLSU, died last week. i was told by Roan yesterday that she was trying to contact me the other day so i would know this tragic news. Micheal died because of a car accident. Roan said that the car crashed at around 2am, he died around 7am. and i hate myself because i should be crying for a loss of a good friend, but i am not. am i that numb? i should be mourning for my former seatmate who made me laugh, who told me stories about his childhood, who shared the stories he have just read, who was once my inspiration because of his unbelievable intelligence and guts... but i am not crying. i cant feel anything last night. but today i woke up feeling depressed. its only this morning that i felt the sadness, and when i was in the shower, i broke down. sigh. late reaction nanaman ako, kainis.

micheal, wherever you are right now, i just want you to know that i have always appreciated your kindness to me. and that i will never, ever forget you. may you rest in peace my good friend. i'll see you in heaven...

happy hearts day

i thought was gonna be alone yesterday. ryan and i was supposed to go out on a date but unfortunately he has to attend this rally in his school (their school, Mapua, was raging mad because the managers are planning to change their school name to Malayan. lol. Malayan? wtf?!). its a good thing my roomates, some of them are the members of the "Alpha no Papa" gang was there to enlighten me. we planned to go out on a dinner date at around 8pm. i took a nap when i came back from school and around 6.30pm, Agness called me and said that she wanted to hang out. i said yes, just to kill the time before 8pm. when i came to starbucks, Fred was there, and so was Elijah, the cute chinito guy (woohoo! new prospect! nyahaha! head over heels kami ni Agness sa kanya). lolz. i decided to stay with them and told my roomates that i wont come to the dinner date na lang. haha.

the night turned out to be a wacky foursome date. two guys and two girls. lolz. we interrogated each other (you know, the famous hot seat! haha), ate brownies and sipped vanilla creams in starbucks, smoked a little (Elijah hate smokers, haha, that means he hated the three of us that night. nyahaha). later that night we went to Agness' condo and stayed at the 26th floor, the rooftop, and played dugtong-kanta, sang mushy songs for each other, reminisced about the good old days, star gazed (but unfortunately there were no stars), played the guitar and sang more songs. haha. that was fun. i thought i won't have any date this valentines but yesterday, the heavens are on my side. i went home that night, morning rather, lol, feeling happy and exhausted. it was the funniest and weirdest valentines i've ever had. thanks Elijah, Agness and Fred!

ahhh. the joys and sorrows of being single. haha.

but you know the weird part? i missed celebrating valentines day the mushy way. haha. no need to worry. i bet next year will be really mushy for me. nyahaha. *winks*

happy hearts day to you all!

angeli and doug: congratulations! ayos! 2 years! stay strong! love you guys!

heaven

i love this song. its called heaven by the Los Lonely Boys (a trio of mexican and santana looking guys who plays the guitar like santana as well. lolz. check them out, they're a grammy nominee this year against usher, alicia and the other pop star airheads)... anyways i think i can very well relate to this song. i feel like i am in this prison, a happy and superficial prison where everyone is laughing, partying and having good time. i feel like im standing somewhere between being happy and being lonely. im not making any sense am i? haha. blame it on my fucking schoolworks. this song is for the people out there who are lost... like me.

Heaven
Save me from this prison
Lord help me get away
Cause only you can save me now
From this misery
Cause I've been lost in my own place
And I'm getting' weary
How far is heaven
And I know I need to change
My ways of livin'
How far is heaven, Lord can you tell me
Cause I've been locked up way too long
In this crazy world, how far is heaven
I just keep on prayin'
Lord Just keep on livin',
how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven
I just got to know how far, how far is heaven
Lord can you tell me
(translated from Spanish: You that's in a higher place
Send me down a blessing)
Cause I know there's a better place
Than this place I'm livin', how far is heaven
And I just got to have some faith
And just keep on giving, how far is heaven
I just wanna know how far


there you go. another feel-good music... ahhh... thank God for musicians like them... the world is already full of crap, we dont need another pop star bimbo who shakes her ass and pretend that she can sing. gah! enough.

la lang

okay agness eto na im updating na!! haha. nah. im just gonna drop a short message. the reasons why i am not updating this blog: 1. my schedule is very busy (both academically and umm, nightlify? wtf?), 2. our internet connection was cut and, 3. i've been thinking a lot lately (yeah, right.)

for those of you who reads this blog, well, im gonna update when the time is right. i just want you to know guys that im still alive (very alive) and im enjoying every single moment of my life. one thing i learned these past few weeks: enjoy life because you can never bring back time. enjoy your youth while you still can. and another thing, dont let your "saint-like friends" put you down. (winks at someone). haahahahahaha.

my wannabe strips. hehe. la lang.