on the lighter side of life...
last night while i was hanging out in starbucks, i met this cute guy named Vermont. we shared a single table and eventually, it lead to a spontaneous conversation. he was very nice, super intelligent (he's from UP, taking up a pre-med studies), and he was this perfect gentleman. we talked about everything under the dim lights of starbucks, haha.
after three and a half hours of pure innocent conversation (10.30pm-1.00am), i was beginning to like this guy. i mean, whats not to like? he was near to perfection. and out of nowhere, out of curiousity, i asked him, "you know what, Vermont, you're too good to be true. are you gay?" he said with a kind smile, "yes, i am gay". it was like i was hit with a mallet in the head, and i asked him again, "really? how gay?", he said, "as gay as it gets"...
that moment i wanted to scream. you are alone doing your homework and sipping your vanilla cream, and here comes the perfect guy, and he talks to you, and you both like each other. but he's fucking gay. sigh. will someone stab me in the heart, please? this has happened to me twice. and the second one was really hard to accept. haha. we ended up laughing at each other. la la la! he's gay.
he explained why he's gay. he said that being gay or straight does not make any difference as long as you are happy and you're true to yourself. his exact words were something like this: "you see, avi, im in this psychosphere, the boundary, the line between being gay and being straight, and im basically in the middle. i dont know yet who i want to be but i know right now, right this moment, that i am happy. maybe i still am searching for my true self, but i am contented with what i have today. kung ano yun tinitibok ng puso ko, dun ako. but who knows? i might be straight one day" and he winks at me. my heart melted. damn.
well Vermont, thank you for that very valuable lesson in life. you really made me smile. and made me a little mature. haha. and i pray that tumor in your head gets better. i will see you again in starbucks. it was nice meeting you and thank you for walking with me on my way home.
and yeah, if you want to un-gay yourself, and you need a hot "wham-bham-thank-you-ma'm" (hehe i just copied what you said, haha) one night stand, feel free to call me. i'd be glad to help you out. haha. i know you're laughing your ass off right now. hahaha.
i love being 19. everyday you meet another person who changes your outlook in life. everyday i look forward to new possibilities and opportunities. i know i will be wiser one day, because i am not afraid to take chances, and i am not afraid to try. and most of all, i am not afraid to believe in myself, and stand up for what i believe in.
i wonder who will i meet today... hmmm...
